I Am Scared That We May Never Get Pregnant…
“My wife and I have struggled with miscarriages and infertility for a number of years. In total, we have suffered through 3 miscarriages and are still childless. As much as we continue to try to get pregnant, it just has not happened since our last miscarriage which occurred in September 2022.”
“It has been a long, sad, and arduous journey, yet we continue to have faith that, when the Lord is ready, He will bless us with children. However, in all honesty, I am scared. I am scared that we may never get pregnant and if we do, my wife will not go to full-term. I am saddened every month when I find out my wife has gotten her cycle. I don't know how I can ever get excited or happy to find out she is pregnant, knowing that I have this fear in my soul.”
“I do have faith in God, and I do trust Him, but it is so difficult to live in this constant state of fear and anxiety. We pray so much and ask God for His help, guidance, peace and wisdom. All we want is to be parents. It is very difficult, but my wife and I remain hopeful. We do trust in God's promise, but I do hope that we can make our way through this.”
“Hope, although fleeting at times, gives me peace. It reminds me that although my wife and I have suffered numerous miscarriages and still remain childless, we are, in fact, parents. It's just that our children are already in heaven. That provides me some peace in that knowledge, that our 3 children are resting peacefully in the light of our Lord.”
“Hope today feels like God will bless us with additional children; children that my wife and I will be able to grow with, play with, and love unconditionally. I keep going by taking care of my wife, assisting her, and being a good husband and friend to her. The things that have helped me along the way has been talking through this process, and even writing letters to our children. Those letters have helped me expressing my feelings and telling our children, who have left us, how I feel and the hopes I had in being their father.”
Lovingly written by father, husband, and friend Philip Perkins
